2004-08-20
12:12 p.m.
Pain Inside - adema
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Realize that I've lost control
Impulses keep flashing through my head
I'm on the outside
Take up all my life inside
Why would I let them make up my mind
And be mislead
Go ahead make up your mind
I have had enough of who they want
Leave me alone
This pain inside I can't understand
This hate in life that will not go away (go away)
Go ahead make up your mind
I have had enough of who they want
Leave me alone
Realize that I've lost control
Impulses keep flashing through my head
I'm on the outside
This pain inside I can't understand
This hate in life that will not go away (go away)
This pain inside I can not live with it
It feels like no one really understands
It's always killing me (killing me)
The problems I face daily
It's always things that I have always take in vain
I'm sick of you judging me
I'm sick of you judging me
I'm sick of you judging me
This pain inside I can't understand
This hate in life that will not go away (go away)
This pain inside I can not live with it
It feels like no one really understands
It's always killing me
The problems I face daily
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2004-08-19 2:19 p.m.
Go Away
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Sudden though of moving on...
to somewhere as long as it is not here.
i felt stuck...
living the same cycle as i can predict i will be for the next 20 years.
Move on... or Go away.....
Hmm...
but How?
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2004-08-18 8:14 a.m.
Sleep now in the fire
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Sleep is one pastime that will always be treasure by everyone.
I guess it does make up to a person day.
Too little of sleep does much harm these days too me.
Too much of sleep does not do harm to me but to my mum.
She got irritate if i wake up too late every week end.
Must be that she wants me to do alot things in the morning.
Anyway just got good sleep yesterday.
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2004-08-16 6:41 p.m.
Dammit.................
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Dammit
It's alright to tell me what you think about me
I won't try to argue or hold it against you
I know that you're leaving, you must have your reasons
The season is calling your pictures are falling down
The steps that I retraced the sad look on your face
The timing and structure, did you hear, he fucked her
A day late a buck short I'm writing the report
On losing and failing when I move I'm flailing now
And it's happened once again, I'll turn to a friend
Someone that understands, sees through the master plan
But everybody's gone and I've been here for too long
To face this on my own, well I guess this is growing up
And maybe I'll see you at a movie, sneak preview
You show up and walk by on the arm of that guy
And I'll smile and you'll wave
We'll pretend it's okay
The charade, it won't last
When he's gone, I won't come back
And it'll happen once again, you'll turn to a friend
Someone that understands, sees through the master plan
But everybody's gone, and you've been there for too long,
To face this on your own, well I guess this is growing up
Well, I guess this is growing up
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2004-08-13 9:43 a.m.
Jump or Laugh
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I guess i am still in the holiday mood.
I try my best to focus on work.
Just got over a big disaster this week.
Hope it will never happen.
But i can't know the future.
It is still far but with a goal and
a focus mind, things can get done.
Nice to see my friend Adil back.
But he gone again for another 3 weeks.
Hope he will recover fully.
Just inspired by the discussion we had..
A: Don't sell yourself too short.Must say that you can jump.
Me: well, i can say i can jump high too much. If i can't, they will noe later.
A: Well u don't need to say u can jump high.. just say u can jump.
Me:The only jump i know is jump down..
hehe.
I guess this is not the correct version but it is really close. Really got a good laugh watching the sketch show yesterday.
Laughter is the best medicine!
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2004-08-11 12:36 a.m.
True Love Waits
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True Love Waits
I'll drown my beliefs
To have you be in peace
I'll dress like your niece
To wash your swollen feet
Just don't leave
Don't leave
I'm not living
I'm just killing time
Your tiny hands
Your crazy kitten smile
Just don't leave
Don't leave
And true love waits
In haunted attics
And true love lives
On lollipops and crisps
Just don't leave
Don't leave
Just don't leave
Don't leave
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2004-08-04 1:27 p.m.
Sleepy people
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talk more or talk less...
if i talk to much ..
i wonder whether the other party really listen...
even if the other party is a good listener but when in a sleepy state...
well i guess it is useless to listen.
and waste my time talking..
"Sleepy people should be left asleep,
No point talking to them.."
In my 3rd day of vege diet...
realise something different abt
the last 2 days...
i gain more alertness and less fatigue.
Hope it benefit me in along term run.
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2004-08-03 3:44 p.m.
2 good?
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I guess sometime i maybe too sensitive. I just need to adjust myself. Be a bit more cool. I nearly get flare up when she was sleep talking. But maybe it happen to her before when i was in that state. Anyway i realise watever action i did will always come back to me. I always got pissed over mere small things that she did... I need to change but sometime.. i guess i was in the wrong place at the wrong time. I sometime felt that she is good and i guess i am not fit for her. Maybe? Too good for me?
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